I am so tired. School is sucking my life out of me. I hate it when people think school is so easy. Its not. I’m trying to be a lawyer herem do you really think I can get into a good school with a bad GPA? Do you know what my GPA is? Its roughly an A. Its great. I’m pretty sure its going to slowly drop because of my stress. Because I’m “irresponsible”. I hate living up to people standards. And I hate myself for not doing anything. And I hate myself for being so weak. And I hate myself for not being able to reach my personal expectations. I sacrifice so much and I get shit back. I try to pull myself together but no, I slip away right when I’m almost there. Its hard for me. My reasons to make myself be able to be motivated, to be happy, its draining away. I wish I could have a simpler life. I don’t know how to solve my problems, but I got enough reasons to try. I know I can’t be like this. I respect the ones that commited suicide, their only choice. And I repect the ones that feel like they should give life one more shot. I’m willing to do that too. Just one more try.